Lots of questions, no answers

Bill and I sat in the living room this morning debating whether Annie's listlessness and increased seizure activity warranted a trip to the ER. After lots of head scratching, hand wringing and consulting with the neuro-doc-on-call, we decided that Bill would take her down, and I would attend to the kids here at home, work, jazz band events, etc.

Bill and Annie were stopped at the entrance of the ER by a security guard armed with swine flu identification tags--if you hadn't sneezed, coughed, sniffled, or been within spitting distance of anyone who had, you got a blue sticker to wear that had in large type: NO FLU SYMPTOMS, or something to that effect.

So after getting settled in a room (2 hours) and after the nurses poked and prodded, and checked her electrolytes, (fine), blood sugar, (fine), and various vital signs, (2 more hours) the docs concluded that her droopiness and increased seizures might be caused by the fludrocortisone, and that we should discontinue it. They also increased some seizure medicine, and doubled her dose of hydrocortisone, and told Bill to call endocrine & neurology on Monday to follow up.

Then Bill took Annie, put her tired little body back in her wheelchair and wheeled her back out to the parking lot, lifted her back into her carseat and drove home. It was a hard day for Dad and Annie...and frustrating that there are no clear cut answers, only questions.

While Bill was on his way home, I watched last Sunday's sermon on line...I had missed it, and Bill had told me that it was helpful to him. I would recommend it to anyone who is going through a tough time--it gave me renewed perspective on our situation of chronic illness. The bottom line for me tonight is that I need to trust Jesus and worship God, even when there are no answers.

Jean

http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/trial/suffering-to-worship.

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8:18